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[Jun. 23rd, 2007|06:33 pm] |
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new journal- Orangina_12. add me, k? I don't know why I bothered starting a new one, just kinda wanted a fresh start. |
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[May. 28th, 2007|08:50 pm] |
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I wish I could lie to myself and say this is what I want and just let myself be happy, but I can't and carry that sinking feeling of TRYING to fool myself(I suppose it's a good thing, I don't let myself fall for stupid things...) In 9th grade I did a project on Eramus and how he said the fools are the lucky ones b/c they don't know teh horrors of life. I never really loved the idea, I saw it as cynical. But I'd hate to admit it, but things WOULD be easier, if I could fool myself once and awhile. |
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[May. 24th, 2007|08:23 pm] |
merr, Im sick with either allegries, strep, or just a bad head cold, either way its weighing me down. of course theres a WAC as well, but thats a side note, right?
I can't tell if things are getting better. Some things for certain are, I've become much better friends with some people but is that really what I want? Im learning patience and its a frustrating process. |
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[May. 21st, 2007|09:23 pm] |
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why the fuck do i do this to myself? kladsjfa;lksdjfa;klsdjf |
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[Dec. 30th, 2006|03:33 pm] |
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I suppose this has been teh best vacation, or maybe the worst? I honestly couldnt say. Ive learned Im much too trusting, I need to get meds for my ADD(this WAC is going nowhere), and that Ive truely changed since middle school. I use to be able to get angry and honestly tell people what I think. And now I hardly have it in me to be mad at others. Which is a good thing... Im exciting for 2007, not b/c I have sick plans coming up but b/c I excited to start anew. Ive made so many mistakes recently..so many stupid things. oy. |
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[Nov. 21st, 2006|10:00 pm] |
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!!! that is what I feel like right now. Im excited for tomorrow(1/2 day, football game) and then Ill be in NY, which will be amazing. Is it possible that I haven't been to New York since last Thanksgiving? I can hardly contain my happiness about going, I just feel like smiling constantly. Then track will start so Ill be getting exercise which will be good, or at least necessary, considering the last time I worked out was August..oy. And then its Christmas time, enough said. Ill come back from Thanksgiving break, bring up my grades/orgainze my life. But most importantly, Im going to redeem myself, my actions. Im gonna stop acting so stupid and get my act together. Thats what Im most excited for, its only the beginning of the year and I already feel like giving up, which I dont like. So from here on out, its a fresh start. |
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[Nov. 16th, 2006|11:36 pm] |
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Its easy to be unhappy, to let yourself submerge into that depression, but I wont be that girl!Because I know Im not, Ive just been having a tough time lately. But thats when things count, when things aren't so sunny and thats when it takes guts to get through it. I shouldnt compare myself to others, its not going to get me anywhere. I suppose the only thing I can do is try my best and keep a good outlook. To quote Mr. Healey (=D), everything else is "trival." There are few things in my control, but my attiude is one of them. So tomorrow I will try my best to keep it all together, to not get moody etc. Because to be honest, I dont know what else I can do... |
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[Nov. 15th, 2006|11:21 pm] |
If someone asked me what I got out of high school, what important fact I learned(and I dont mean the cause of WWII, how to solve a polynomial etc.), but rather what essential fact of life I now know, Id have to say that things change. This cant be understated, my life has done a complete 180. Last year alone proved that point(how well can one ever know someone?). This year I've changed...I am truely a different person, I've lost that uncontrolled joy, hope I have for life. Now I can hardly bring myself to stay awake during the day, I sleep after school not only because Im tried but also to escape for a little bit, even if just for 1/2 an hr.
Look at me-Im not that girl, I've never written-never believed!-anything as depressing as that before.
I dont want to pity myself, but I wonder what I have going for me? I thank God for my friends, for they are my saving grace.
Before I was able to rationalize my life, but saying I may not have this, but at least I have a postive attiude and now...I dont even have that.
I dont know where am going w/ all this except Im very sad lately. But I suppose everything seems worse at nite. |
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[Mar. 22nd, 2005|06:35 pm] |
so my entry did finish(grr...computers) so the spelling was all off in that entry and heres now the survey/
Who are you, what's our relationship:
How and where did we meet:
What's my middle name:
How long have you known me:
Tell me one good thing about myself:
When you first saw me what was your impression:
My age:
Birthday:
My favorite band at the moment:
Color eyes:
Do I have any siblings:
Have you ever had a crush on me:
What's one of my favorite things to do:
Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you:
Describe me in 3 words:
Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
What do you like most about me:
If we could spend a day together what would we do:
Have we ever gotten in a fight:
Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it:
What do you think my weakness is?:
Do you think I'll get married?:
What makes me happy?:
What makes me sad?:
What reminds you of me?:
If you could give me anything what would it be?:
When's the last time you saw me?:
you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?:
Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?:
Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?:
If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?:
What song (if any) reminds you of me?:
If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?: |
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[Feb. 5th, 2005|12:22 pm] |
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